||[Apr. 23rd, 2007|07:04 pm]
ive been drawing a lot lately. its nice.
my little 11 year old cousin claire has been having seizures lately. it started last week on monday, and shes been having one every single day since then... sometimes multiple times a day. its so strange because shes been perfectly healthy all her life.
shes been to a doctor and neurologist and eveything. they say her MRI and CAT scans come up positive for a seizure disorder, but she hasnt been dignosed with epilepsy yet.
they want to put her on depakote, and that makes me really nervous. when i wa sin the psyche wards the WORST OF THE WORST were on depikote. like, paranoid schizophrenics. im really nervous for her to be starting on such a strong drug...? but her seizures keep getting increasingly severe. theyre frontal lobe seizures, i guess thats supposed to be dangerous. at first she was just passing out for an hour but now shes havng the full blown convulsions and everything.
im so so worried. she means so much to me. she has idolized me her whole life. i keep having nightmares of her dying... which is probably ridiculous but it is pretty serious.
if you have a seziure disorder you can never get your lisence to drive and your jobs will probably be limited too. and side affects of all these fucking medications...
i know a girl whose brother died while he was having a seziure. he lived out on his own and when he had a seziure he fell down the stairs and died.
im just really worried. =( i love that girl.